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If this ever get to you, I hope you know.

Maybe you know him much longer than me. Or just so much more than me. Maybe I can never experience the things you have experienced with him. Maybe the pain you got from the past makes you think who you are now is open enough to accept him for who he is. Maybe you know about my circumstances but you still choose to hang on. All these maybe’s. I don’t ever know.

But maybe you should know to.

Its all different when he’s with you and when he’s with me. I’m not the same like you. I don’t think like you. And anyone could ever be so lucky to have him, no doubt. Because why would I even stay despite all of these thats been going on? I don’t know, you think?

I am not saying this to let go. But because I love him, I have to give him the happiness he ever deserve. And if all I gave was just pain and emotional burden, I’m just going to stay away and watch him from far. I can’t be the one for him if he has someone like you whom he can count on. And like I’ve said, you would be so lucky to have someone like him.

The only thing between me and him is only this blessing. And I promise that I am not going to let anything bother this life. Because the last thing I want to give to this baby is the life I never got. Any parents would say that.

If this ever reaches you, I hope you know. That I never walked away. I stayed and I still had faith. I prayed to Him for guidance and I prayed for nothing else but his happiness. I still love him, now that with all my might. And never would I be able to let go of any of that.

I hope you know. That I will always be waiting.